on monday. my phone got stolen right in front of me. and when i got back home, my room was flooded -.- so yes. it was a horrible day. wasn't in a great mood to talk about it. took me 3 days to clear up e mess, and for e room to dry. and all cos my idiot neighbour didn't turn off her fucking tap. ARGH.

hello cheerup (: thank you

happy birthday rachel dear (: my old old friend. ahahaha. pun intended.

watched p.s. i love you tonight with angela (: us two girls sat through the entire thing bawling from start to end. made me think about alot of things. i like these movies ((: its a feelgoodmovie. and don't we all need one once in awhile. i'm definitely not a rainbows clouds and puppies type of person. but yes i like to feel good (: haha, even though e process requires me bawling my eyes out. plus these movies gives me hope. hope that there is happiness out there for everyone.

like how i used to acutely feel the lack of you by my side. i used to wait for the day where you'd remember i was there. maybe you did, maybe you didn't. i'm not quite sure what to think sometimes. i wonder if u feel this loss as acutely as me.

sometimes you keep looking faraway, searching for another someone, you never really look beside you and see the most important one by your side.

but its fine now. cos i've finally walked away. its not easy. the missing still pops up, in e weirdest times. but yes. i'm learning to not think so much about what was, what is and what could have been.

and then it makes me even more aware of the ppl i've been missing. mel and pj. the two ppl i need so much in my life. that i didn't get a chance to see this winter cos one's in michigan and the other's in taiwan. what a contrast this year will be. from seeing and talking to my dear girl everyday. to have to see her face only on facebook or skype. bah.

i'm living in the now. i'm fully appreciating and loving all those with me now, and those who i can go back to in spore. i'm thankful for all these people (: they make life wonderful. and i can look at things with a detachment now. i like it.

i can't deal with the past anymore.

i miss drama. as in hk. esp char and yipeng. the shit we used to do together. hahaha. i rmb our cinderella play. i was cinderella, yipeng was the prince. nearly made me puke blood when i found out he was going to take zhiyuan's place. ahahaha. how far we've all come. and how things never turn out the way we expect.

: i still believe :: a1 :